Joyful fall y’all. I hope you’re having the fall-y-ist fall but. I wish to speak to you a lil about what occurs when the meds begin to work and the way it kind of, in a manner, precipitated me to have some turmoil in my life. I’m fairly fucking ridiculous so I hope this helps peak your curiosity. And don’t fear, I’ll attempt to educate you one thing on this submit!
What I Imply Once I Say The Meds Work
So, I began a brand new medicine again in July and let me let you know, I’ve some negative effects. Bizarre, negative effects. I received’t get into them to your sanity. The meds appear to work, I imply, I solely hallucinate on events once I get actually stressed or anxious. Oh and I’m a ball of stress and anxiousness so theres that. The meds work nice in any other case, nevertheless it’s virtually as in the event that they peeled again a brand new stage of hysteria that I’ve by no means had and my good ol buddy paranoia is again in full swing.
Man, I didn’t even know you possibly can be this paranoid BUT, I don’t hallucinate as a lot so theres a plus facet! I’m not a “silver lining” or optimistic form of gal so I went in totally anticipating so as to add extra weight achieve to my checklist and never have any actual progress as soon as once more however I’m completely happy to report I really feel cured. That’s what I inform folks anyway.
Did the Meds Treatment Me?
No. In fact I’m not cured. But it surely’s simpler to say that than yea they work in some areas and never in others. Effectively, truly, that’s straightforward to say however you get my drift. I really feel advantageous, the perfect I’ve felt in fairly some time nevertheless I do know I nonetheless should work on so many issues to be able to BE higher.
Now for the rationale the meds have precipitated me turmoil. I really feel like I misplaced myself.
Dropping Myself
Yea, I’ve lastly grown to just accept having schizoaffective dysfunction. I’ve had it for YEARS and I realized to besides it in June. Friggin June. I bought the meds in July. Now, I’m not saying I’m not grateful I really feel higher as a result of do I fucking ever love feeling higher. However, I really feel like I misplaced my uniqueness. My new identification. My individuality. The factor about that’s that under no circumstances is it true, so why do I consider it? PARANOIA!! WELCOME TO THE PARTY. Yea, I even have paranoia about simply being one other quantity on this planet, however I’m doing issues now to place me exterior of the field.
I’m making an attempt to jot down extra, create extra, dream extra (gross, tacky) I’m making an attempt to be a greater individual for myself and the folks round me. So no, I haven’t misplaced myself. I’m only a new me and that’s arduous to know at first however I’m positive I’ll get the cling of it will definitely.
Related Scenario?
In the event you’re in an analogous scenario simply know you could have you’re personal uniqueness to you. There’s all the time SOMETHING completely different about you that makes you not only a quantity. Don’t be a quantity! Do the factor! Step exterior of the field! And extra importantly, do what makes YOU completely happy. I needed to cease making an attempt to please everybody and be the one to make everybody completely happy and smiley on a regular basis. Who offers a rattling when you upset somebody as a result of they don’t like your way of life!! In the event you’re loving how you reside and it makes you content by no means cease! Imagine in creating your individual larger, brighter future, honey!
I’ve had folks inform me the best way my life turned out isn’t how they pictured it for me. What does that imply?? You imply you DIDN’T see me having a grave psychological sickness that utterly 180-ed my life?? You imply you didn’t see me having to stop a elaborate job with advantages as a result of I used to be too unstable to work? Wow, me neither however hey HERE WE ARE. And I wouldn’t change a factor at this level. Generally the grass being inexperienced isn’t all the time the perfect factor. It offers you time to study, discover and end up. Work with the grass you could have.
Capsule Shaming?
Alright right here’s a subject kinda following the theme of this submit however probably not, however right here we go in any case. Don’t be that individual. Don’t be that rattling one who says you will get by with out medicine and that its such a foul factor to be on it. Some folks NEED IT. I NEED IT. I’m the one that wants it. I’ve tried all the pieces to keep away from medicine (take into account I used to be hooked on sleeping capsules for years so I don’t wish to hurt my physique any additional) however I take the mandatory medicine to permit me to dwell my day by day life as regular as attainable. Is that so dangerous?
I by no means understood shaming somebody for making an attempt to raised their life. If it’s their alternative to make use of meds, allow them to! Some folks b’y.
This submit actually trailed off in bizarre instructions however I hope you took one thing from it. I hope you sat down and actually took within the ideology to only be your self and work in direction of your brighter future.
As all the time, I’m all the time right here if wanted, I really like all of your fairly faces.
Take care,
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